Dear future husband.

Dear Future Husband,

I come to you broken and hurt. Every kind word you say to me, I wonder when put down or jab will come. Every sweet touch of your hand makes me wonder when the sting of being hit will happen.

It's not your fault. You walked in on me when I was broken, hurt, and a mess. I kept my mouth shut for years. Tried to be the good wife. I kept it all bottled inside.

Dear future husband, this will be a long road for us. I have to learn to trust you. To let you in. I have to learn that I don't have do sexual things to make you happy. I have to learn that it's not my fault all the time. I have to learn to love again. And most of all I have to learn to be loved, and know I'm worthy of love.

Dear future husband, I pray for you. I pray that our Heavenly Father will bless you. I pray that you will seek him first. I pray that your days are blessed. I pray that our Heavenly Father guides you, that you soak up his word in scripture study and raise your voice to him in praise. I long for the day we will be able to kneel in prayer together. Sharing scripture with my children. I pray that we go to our Heavenly Father together with our problems. That we work on things together, and try to not raise our voices to each other.

Dear future husband, I pray that you find peace, love, and hope. I pray that you are surrounded by friends and loved ones. I pray that our Heavenly Father guide you in all you do. And most of all I pray that you are praying for me too.

Love,
Your future wife.